Brothers
I don’t even know how to write this… or if I even should… but lately life has been heavy… it started with silent tears I kept hiding, and then one day I just couldn’t hold it anymore… I have just one younger brother, he got married in December 2025 and in a few days he’s leaving for another country… maybe forever… and I’m not ready… I’ve never lived alone, never stayed in a hostel, never known a life without him around… my whole life it was just me, my mom, and him… my dad left for the Middle East when I was in 3rd standard, coming home once in two years for just a month… we never really had that “dad love”… never went out with him, never had those father-son moments people talk about… so without even realizing, my little brother became everything… my company, my support, my habit, my strength… we grew up together, played like best friends, fought like enemies, and still always had each other’s back… I scolded him a lot… even till today… not because I didn’t love him, but because I wanted him to be better than me… he made the silliest mistakes, broke my things, got me scolded by mom for things he did… and today I swear I would give anything to live those moments again… we didn’t roam much, didn’t have big adventures, but we had each other in the smallest moments… watching anime, movies, eating together, sitting silently in the same room doing nothing… and somehow that was everything… as we grew up we got busy, talked less, but he was always there… and I never told him how much I love him… never told him what he truly means to me… and now all I can think is… who will I scold now… who will go out at midnight just because I’m hungry… who will sit next to me at weddings… who will steal my clothes and watches… who will make me angry for no reason… who will fill this house with that noise that made it feel alive… yesterday I was alone in my room thinking about all this… my eyes got wet… and then I just broke… I couldn’t stop crying… I went downstairs, hugged him so tight and for the first time in my life I said “I love you”… not once… but three times… he looked confused… and then he started crying too… and then my mom… she couldn’t hold it either… that moment… I wish I could freeze it forever… I pray he gets everything he dreams of… happiness, success, a beautiful life… maybe a family of his own there… but no matter how far he goes… no matter what life becomes… a part of me will always be here… waiting for my little brother to walk back in… like he never left… my life, my heart… goes with you, little bro… 💔
#Abdo
